I have something weird to confess: I’ve always been uncomfortable being called a “woman.” I would never blink at being called a “girl” but “woman” weirded me out for as long as I can remember. And honestly it still kind of does.
I don’t know if it’s because I always thought of women as my mother’s age and didn’t want to admit I was growing older, or if it’s because sometimes I’ve felt uncomfortable in my own skin.
Being raised in a strict religious environment you sometimes tend to get the message (even if it isn’t necessarily blatantly taught) that sexuality in general is something to cover up, to hide and to be ashamed of. And while the word “girl” seems innocent and pure, the word “woman” can seem sexy and grown up.
When I put on this outfit for whatever reason I feel more woman than girl. I wish I could say I’m healed enough from those ideas from my upbringing to feel completely proud and confident as a woman, but I’m in the process of growing to accept myself, and getting more comfortable in the skin I’m in.
I hope that today you feel beautiful and strong and sexy and perfect just the way you are.
You are absolutely gorgeous, sis. Inside and out! You are such an inspiration and I am beyond proud of you. : )
Thank you from the bottom of my heart! Such kind words coming from such a beautiful human being mean the world to me!
Jessie, I know what you mean. It took me a good while before I felt comfortable being called a woman. It almost made me giggle in an embarrassed way that I could be taken seriously as a woman. And of course, as my daughter, it seemed strange at first to think of you as a woman, but then I’ve watched while before my eyes youve blossomed into a strong, beautiful graceful woman . And not only a beautiful woman, but a beautiful soul as well, where it counts the most. Love you and very proud of you. Btw, your blog is very impresseev!!
Thank you so much for your kindness!!! It means more than you know! Also, it’s nice to know I’m not the only one who struggled to call herself a woman! Such an interesting thing…